Although I've recovered most of my articles from the old blog, some of you will notice a change in my tone at the new site here.
My anger, frustration, and hang ups don't appear to be the driving force. Have I changed?
I met a boy a few days ago. His name is Aiden Crane. His father was kind enough to share his story on a blog called the "Useless Tree" and I came away from the experience looking at things differently. For me, connecting with my past to help see the future provides healing. The healing came in the form of the "Tao te Ching." A book that helped me rediscover myself and how I can be a better mother.
I read this book back in college immersing myself into the history and culture before I could fully grasp it's meaning. I figured out that it was written in response to a time in history in the same way all wisdom is born and transferred. A time in history, in all our histories past or present, where people resort to hoodwinking to get things done.
I decided it is overestimated the amount of wisdom that oozes out of a person once they have found themselves the victim of hoodwinking. Confucious or Gongfutzi travels a very long distance to learn the meaning of life from the old sage, Lao Tzu, presumed to have authored the "Tao te Ching."
Lao Tzu is crabby and irritated when he is approached by this weary and inquisitive traveler so he says "by the time I tell you the answer, you'll be dead, so don't worry yourself."
Kongfuzi apparently wasn't happy with this response. I imagine, he felt a little betrayed by Lao Tzu so he set out on his own path of self discovery creating a moral path for others to follow.
I'm not implying to have any wisdom here on this blog. But it was the connection I made to the "Tao te Ching" and to Aiden that helped me see a new beginning and the value of my experiences as a mother, negative and positive, without compromizing my integrity or the integrity of others.